even if you don't say it, I will wait for you KIM HEECHUL

february 26, 2011. sunday. i was at home trying to stream " a crazy little thing called love". and so much for fast internet connection, i had to wait for it to load. then i remembered something. i'm not really a fan of kpop or anything, but i remembered a song with the most catchy tune that had me searching for it. NO OTHER SUPER JUNIOR. i started watching the video. i don't really have a background on this super junior or this kpop thingy, though i heard sorry sorry, it's you and bonamana already. the video started having me sing "oh oh oh" THEN THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FACE OF A MAN CAUGHT MY ATTENTION. HE WAS WRITING A CARD INSIDE A LIBRARY. i am a bookworm and that had me staring at him. THEN HE CAME OUT WITH THOSE GLASSES AND EMERGED TO BE A NERD. (i have a thing for nerds). his dance moves weren't really that impressive, i even thought i was better than him.  but there was something a but the way he carried himself while dancing that had me staring at him in awe. i repeated it a hundred times before i realized, " I HAVE TO KNOW HIS NAME"

google became very useful and for a while i forgot i was streaming something. reading about them on wiki i had to say, THEY'RE THAT BIG?!! i had to search 12 names before i found KIM HEECHUL. GOTCHA! i had to admit, he looks kind of girlish. but never did i think he was GAY! then i realized, "i saw this guy on IDOL WORLD and had me disliking him!" who wouldn't? he was so rude towards the other members and he always showed his bossy side. THERE MUST BE SOMETHING THAT MADE HIM DO THAT.

and that was the start of my journey as a PETAL* and as an ELF*. THOUGH FOR OTHERS I MIGHT NOT BE A FULL GROWN ELF OR PETAL, I KNOW IN MY HEART THE MOMENT I LOVED THAT BEAUTIFUL MILKY WHITE-SKINNED HUMAN BEING AND IN THE END LOVING THE OTHER 12, I KNEW THOSE BOYS HAD ME. THAT MAN HAD ME. I KNEW I WAS A PETAL. I KNEW I WAS AN ELF.

Then the most shocking news reached me " SUPER JUNIOR MEMBER KIM HEECCHUL TO ENLIST IN MILITARY" of course that was no big deal, having a short background on idol world and korea because of my fandom, i knew they WOULD eventually enlist. BUT WHAT HAD ME IN RAGE AND IN RUCKUS was what followed. "september 1" that had me thinking like" WHAT??!! IN THE MIDDLE OF PROMOTIONS??!! THIS IS A RUMOR!!" but articles popped-up one by one and with HEE confirming it. MY WORLD BROKE TO PIECES. I HAD AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT WORLD WITH HIM AND THE BOYS IN IT. WITHOUT HIM IT WOULDN'T BE THE WORLD I CREATED.

i was consoled by friends but didn't work. some friends don't understand and i understand them. music and language preference are different with every person. SO I HAD TO KEEP THE MOURNING AND DEPRESSION TO MYSELF. SOMETIMES IT MADE ME THINK, AFTER THIS I'D BE INSANE. but HEE put me together again. IN TIMES WHEN I'M DEPRESSED I JUST HAVE TO WATCH CLIPS OF HIM AND I WAS OKAY. SEEING HIM SO REAL AND SO CLOSE IN TEISE VIDEOS MADE ME MISS HIM. BUT I HAD TO BE STRONG. FANS ARE THERE TO SUPPORT THEIR IDOLS AND NOT HINDER THEM FROM BEING THEMSELVES.

10 DAYS AFTER THE NEWS I WAS STANDING BELOW THAT WAITING SHED. a white car stopped on front of me and from the passenger's side emerge the MOST BEAUTIFUL CREATURE I'VE EVER SEEN. HE SHAVED HIS HEAD MAKING ME FEEL WEIRD. i never saw him wear his hair this short before. and for a moment our eyes met. i know i had to say something but words were hard to find. i just stood there admiring your perfection. you waved and smiled. time stood still, all your words seemed to slur until all i could see is your smile. and i just when i found my words, you turned your back. i knew i had to do something. the car door opened, i knew i had to say it. you went inside the car and the door closing behind you. my shoulders sagged, my face fell. i just stared at your car with tears filling my eyes till it blurred my vision. the words i found hard to say, the words i never got the chance to tell you, " I LOVE YOU KIM HEECHUL, I'LL BE WAITING...."

*petals are KIM HEECHULS fans
*ELFS are super junior's fans

Petals Philippines: [Project] "A Promise from ELF" for Kim Heechul

Petals Philippines: [Project] "A Promise from ELF" for Kim Heechul: Hi ELFs! We all know that a few days from now, our Kim Heechul will be enlisting in the army. Although he wants to do his enlisting quiet...

the pain of one becomes the heartbreak of another

i was updating my twitter page just a while ago and i thought i'd take a peek at my bias' twitter page. and POOF! i saw that frustrated tweet, "Bullshit mirror Fuck the scar.. I'm not cool Everything hate.."

It all started with a fan girl accidentally hitting him with a fanboard. This caused him to have a wound just below his left eye.

I think this really frustrated him. Knowing the Great Kim Heechul to be very vain and narcissistic, it was no wonder he would have to be so frustrated. And reading his tweet for today enraged me. He had always love looking at he mirror and praising himself at how beautiful he is, but this was something new.

I thought of putting a status on facebook. But i know that will be lame. Then i remembered my blog site. I may spazz a little longer but you'd have to bare with me. This thing is something new to me. I only joined this fandom for two months. He may sometimes have a bad mood and express his angst. But this one isn't just angst. I could feel his vulnerability and the feeling of inferiority in this that he tries to hide with the curse.

I know this hurts him so much. He has always been proud of his BEAUTIFUL face. Yes, BEAUTIFUL. Even if he doesn't admit it, i feel like he feels that his face is the only thing he excels in. Not that i'm saying he's not talented. Of course he is. Playing the piano, acting, singing, being an MC and DJ, and even dancing. But his face had always been his pride.And what's more hurtful is the fact that the fanboard is a picture of him and his close friend Hangeng, who disbanded with the group after filing a lawsuit against their agency.

And because of his stupid scar, his self-esteem had decreased. Tonight, he didn't show his face on the livestreaming of his radio program YOUNGSTREET.

This is what hurts me the most. I try my best to make him feel that it was nothing and that a little scar won't change the fact that he'll still be the most BEAUTIFUL man to ever grace the idol world. But no, the efforts are futile. It always boils down to the fact that i'm just one of those fan girls trying to support their idol and who wants to get noticed by them.

It breaks my heart to know that he is in great pain for seeing that ugly scar in his face. If i could just have that scar for him then i would. But i can't. If only i could come to him and tell him everything's okay. But i can't. If i can just catch all things thrown to him, i would. But i can't.

There's so much left unsaid. In my wrecked state, i'm at a loss for words. Frustration, anger, sadness and pain envelope my heart causing it to break into pieces. Breathing seems to take a lot of effort. So many ifs enter your mind and you just can't type them down.

HEENIM OPPA I KNOW YOU DON'T KNOW ME. AND YOU MIGHT THINK I'M A CRAZY FAN GIRL DOING ALL THESE THING JUST TO GET NOTICED BY YOU. BUT OPPA I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT EVEN IF YOU'LL BE FULL OF SCARS, EVEN IF AT TIMES YOU GET OUT OF TUNE, EVEN IF YOU'RE NOT SO GOOD IN DANCING, EVEN IF THEY HATE YOU FOR YOUR GUTS, I HAVE ACCEPTED YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE MADE OF. I WILL FOREVER KEEP YOU IN MY HEART. EVEN IF TIME FLIES, LEADING US TO OBLIVION, I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR PETAL.

KEEP ON FIGHTING HEENIM OPPA AND PETALS, ELFS AND YOUR HYUNGS WILL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE SUPPORTING YOU ALL THE WAY! :) <3

( credits to the owners of the pics and gif i used in this blog)

CEBU CITY: The Best Of Both Worlds

            Trees grown meters from each other seen on sidewalks. Hustle of cars in the morning, afternoon and evening traffic. The breathtaking sunset and the colorful city lights. Indeed, Cebu City is the best of both worlds. Be in an industrialized country but still feel the provincial spirit.

              trough the course of time, Cebu City has developed into one of the world's best tourist spots. Showing its cultural and modernized architecture, Cebu City never ceases to amaze tourist and even locals.

MAGELLAN'S CROSS

Magellan's Cross is a christian cross planted by Portuguese, and Spanish explorers as ordered by Ferdinand Magellan upon arriving in Cebu in the Philippines on April 8, 1521.
This cross is housed in a chapel next to the Basilica Minore del Santo Niño on Magallanes Street (Magallanes being the Spanish name of Magellan), just in front of the city hall of Cebu City. A sign below the cross describes the original cross is encased inside the wooden cross that is found in the center of the chapel. This is to protect the original cross     for people who chipped away parts of the cross for souvenir  purposes or in the belief that the cross possesses miraculous powers. Some people, however, believe that the original cross had been destroyed or had disappeared after Magellan's death, and the cross is a replica that was planted there by the Spaniards after they successfully colonized the Philippines.
Magellan's Cross is a symbol of Cebu, and the chapel's image can be found in its city seal. It is also seen as the symbol of Roman Catholicism in the Philippines.


FORT SAN PEDRO

Fuerza de San Pedro is a military defense structure, built by Spanish and indigenous Cebuano laborers under the command of Spanish conquistador, Miguel López de Legazpi and the Spanish Government in Cebu. It is located in the area now called Plaza Indepedencia, in the Pier Area of Cebu City, Philippines.
The smallest, oldest triangular bastion fort in the country was built in 1738 to repel Muslim raiders. In turn, it served as a stronghold for Filipino revolutionaries near the end of the 19'th Century. This served as the nucleus of the first Spanish settlement in the Philippines.
The fort is triangular in shape, with two sides facing the sea and the third side fronting the land. The two sides facing the sea were defended with artillery and the front with a strong palisade made of wood. The three bastions were named La Concepción (SW); Ignacio de Loyola (SE), and San Miguel (NE). It has a total inside area of 2,025 sq. meters. The walls are 20 feet (6.1 m) high, 8 feet (2.4 m) thick and the towers are 30 feet (9.1 m) high from the ground level. The circumference is 1,248 feet (380 m). The sides are of unequal lengths and the one fronting the city is where one may find entry into the Fort. Fourteen cannons were mounted in their emplacements most of which are still there today. Work first started on May 8, 1565 with Miguel Lopéz de Legazpi breaking ground.

AYALA TERRACES

The Ayala Terraces is a PhP 600M development project by the Ayalas in Cebu. The Terraces, which was originally Ayala Center Cebu’s Lagoon before it was renovated, comprises 8,000 square meters of available floor area for establishments. The addition of the Ayala Terraces in Ayala Center Cebu gives Cebuanos a new definition to their urban lifestyle.

The ambiance of the place gives people the impression that everything within its confines is expensive. But don’t be deceived with its looks. On the contrary, I find the rates of the food establishments here relatively affordable (as compared to Metro Manila prices). So far, I’ve only been able to dine at Mooon Cafe — a Mexican Restaurant, Sunburst — Cebu’s signature fried chicken and UCC Cafe.

SOUTH ROAD PROJECTS (SRP)

The South Road Properties (SRP) site comprises 300 hectares of waterfront land just to the south of the Cebu CBD and the Port of Cebu. Some 240 hectares has been reclaimed. The area is registered with PEZA as a Special Economic Zone. The project commenced in the early 1990’s and is a greenfield site.







BASILICA MINORE DEL STO. NINO

The Santo Niño de Cebú ("Holy Child of Cebu") is a Roman Catholic figure of the Child Jesus highly similar to the Infant Jesus of Prague. Like the image's counterpart in Prague, the figure is clothed in expensive textile robes mostly donations from fervent devotees in the Philippines and abroad. The statue is the oldest Catholic relic in the Philippines and permanently housed since 1565 at the Basilica Minore del Santo Niño in Cebu City.

              To top it all, nobody beats the hospitality of Cebuanos. And I think, that's the best thign we could offer our tourists. No matter how modern Cebuanos are nowadays, we are still raised with Catholic morality and values.

               Cebu City, with its fine combination of culture, religion and technology proves to be an interesting fact that most tourist would want to see. Catholics as we are, we have great faith in our God and in the Holy Child, Sr. Sto. Nino. This is clearly seen in our Sinulog Festival celebrated every January. 

                Let me end this with the quotation " I LOVE YOU CEBU CITY!" :))